What’s your secret that could literally ruin your life if it came out?
At the outset, I would want to mention that I am a Stanford CS undergrad working for an extremely well-known tech company in NYC, earning around $100k. Here’s a sneak peek into my dark side which absolutely no one knows about.
I have a habit of shoplifting, so much so that I became really good at it. I know that I can easily afford to purchase the stuff that I steal, but shoplifting just gives me this “high” that is indescribable.. I stole B&W C5 from the Apple Store, and randomly steal stuff from other stores.
I got caught for shoplifting 2 weeks ago, and had to pay the civil demand fee of $150, after which I’ve almost stopped shoplifting. The $150 penalty was probably 20% of the total worth of stuff that I’ve stolen over the months.
I have no friends at all, just a girlfriend.. Having no friends makes me quite lonely and unhappy in spite of people thinking that I’m “living the life”. I really try making friends, but unfortunately I fuck up each and every time because of my big mouth, and generally people think that I’m not a fun person to hang out with, when in fact the truth is the opposite once I open up to people.
I have a huge inferiority complex and don’t believe in myself. Heck I’m 22 and I’m making 100k at a top tech company but I still feel that I’m shit. Nobody really cares about me. I don’t blame them though.. Nobody really knows me I guess.
Two and a half years ago I was in dire financial straits, so I sold my home to keep my struggling business afloat. I neglected to tell the owners that they have an 800 sq. ft. bunker on the property that I built about seven years ago. The bunker that I’ve called home since I sold it. The entrance to it is well-hidden, but I still come and go very early/very late in the day.
I’m a single man who keeps to himself. I’m now in a situation where I could move somewhere else, but I love this hidden paradise so much.
That I am gay in a place where being gay, for all intents and purposes, is illegal.